home of the enslaved and cowardly

Tumblr still down. Stop. Probably a sign to study hard. Stop. One more day in the hellhole. Stop. Need to shower, do laundry, pack. Stop. What will become of this. Stop.

Because I am terrible at them. On the other hand, social observations - I am quite the bitch about those. Young Christian butterfly types in college of the Asian variety seem to be stellar at taking pictures of food, each other, and (of course) themselves. It would be terrible if they were all so dressed up and no one caught a photo of them jumping in unison, wouldn't it? Of course, that isn't to say that I haven't partaken in such photos - everyone, even men, have been a 13 year-old girl once - but somehow I feel like I have the humility to not repeat those photo happenstances. Hopefully. Unfortunately, everytime that I feel like I have dressed up  put on more acceptable, feminine clothing and would like to capture happy memories of when I appear decent, I realize that I don't really have gal pals who have the gall to do shameful things like selfies in bathrooms or the sorority squat (the pose girls take usually in the front row of a photo, but can be the entire gr...

You know what they say. Except - you know how impulsive I am - I am writing the damn thing in pen and sending it. Why can't you help a friend out? I don't understand why this thing takes so much energy and sacrifice from you. It's not like socializing is my forte either, but I just think that this award is a good thing and I just need some help in the form of some support. I am not asking you to make sure that you introduce yourself to anything that moves. Why is this so difficult? But I guess that's what makes us different people - how we treat friends  others. I am still very much frustrated and disappointed  Should have listened to her. And stayed away.