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sorry, but that's not important

yeah, yeah I know - hiatus for drawing challenge (no time, no tablet)

just to needed to explode in anger right now.

I don't think this happens to me very often, but I am shaking with fury - my shoulders are starting to hurt from being so tense, I just want to scream and grab someone by the throat. out of nowhere, I can't stop my hands from trembling, I don't know where this rage came from but I just feel extremely violent and in need of teaching someone a lesson that involves me shoving my foot so far down their throat, they will be shitting my shoe.

what the fuck is going on. I was fine earlier today (barely 20 minutes ago), but now I don't want anyone to talk to me, look at me, or touch anything. I want to throw something or someone.

Fucking hell, I might accidentally throttle my friends when I see them soon because I don't want to fucking see anyone right now.

AND IT'S NOT THE FUCKING STRESS. SO DON'T TALK TO ME ABOUT THE STRESS. I JUST TRIED TO DRAW MY STRESS IN THROUGH A PICTURE OF SOME DUMB FUCK BUT EVEN ABUSING HIM/MY NOTEBOOK/PEN WASN'T ENOUGH.

I can't take any deep breaths right now but given my emotional trends, I might be sobbing by this time tomorrow. Who the fuck even knows anymore.

INSTEAD OF WANTING TO SLEEP AND NEVER WAKE UP THIS TIME I WANT TO PUT SOMEONE ELSE THE FUCK OUT. I THINK I SHOULD JUST GO TO SLEEP NOW OR AT LEAST GO TO BED BEFORE I SCREAM MY THROAT OUT AND TERRIFY EVERYONE.






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