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希望你把我记住,你流浪的孩子

I had a beautiful dream last night.




It has been nearly a year since I have had the tendency to wish that I could sleep my life away. During that period last year, every night before I fell asleep, I would sincerely hope that that night I would close my eyes and never have to open them again. Some time in between then and now, I have re-developed the behavior where sleep was merely to recharge myself.

But this morning I didn't want to leave my dream. I dreamt that I was so loved, protected, and cherished by two people. Even though there were parts of my dream where I was terrified and running from some evil that is easily manifested in dreams, knowing that those two were standing beside me and more concerned for me than anything - I was safe. Not only did they want to protect me, they had the capability of taking care of me.

I remember being told eons ago the Dr. Seuss quote: "You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams." My current situation is more of a reversal - I dread waking up because my dreams are finally better than my reality. In my dream, I was loved unconditionally and could feel that immediacy.

Analyze that (Robert De Niro style).
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每当我感到疼痛就像让你抱紧我
就像你一直做的那样触摸我的灵魂.
每当我迷惑的时候你都给我一种温暖
就像某个人的手臂紧紧搂着我的肩膀.

有些人会慢慢消失
有些感情会渐渐破碎
可你却总在我心中就像无与伦比的太阳.

-汪锋

飘来飘去, 一直反复和详细地听着一首歌. 长裙子似乎代表一种忧郁感.



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